Uh...

So, uh today i broke a toe.  Great.  Right foot.  Middle toe.  It's swollen and purple and hurts.

Oh  joy!

Happy Memorial Day

To those who have served in the military, or are serving:  Thank you.

Because of your sacrifice, dedication to Country and ability to follow the commands of those in charge through the years, i am able to not only embrace my feminity but write freely about it.  i, as a woman, am able to be educated and drive and own my own house and teach others and wear short skirts and talk/have frienships with people from any other nation, if i so choose.  i am not restricted to how many children i could bear.  i am able to work and have whatever job i like and am qualified for.  i am able to walk about freely.  i can sing at the top of my lungs.

Thank you.

Visual Peace

Another gorgeous day.  The sun is hot, but the breeze is cool and clear.  i love days like this.  All the windows in my house are wide open allowing the air and sunshine to permeate every room.  my house is perfectly cleaned and everywhere you look there is visual peace.

Visual peace is so important.  Life, work, school, relationships take our time and attention and everyone needs a place where they can relax.   i have chosen to make my entire house like that.  i don't like clutter. (ok...except i DO have too many books lying about), i certainly don't like a dirty house, i like clean surfaces and straightened bed covers.  Because when i walk in the house after a long day, or have faced something that stresses me or upsets me, i like to find refuge and peace in my own home.

Scented candles, lots of bubble bath, living plants, and even my crazy cat all provide a sense of peace and security.  i look around my rooms and can relax a bit because i know that hard work and keeping them clean then provide me with a wonderful place to unwind and sleep.

Only thing that would make it better, would be a swarthy half-dressed Man to greet me!

Now THAT would be visual peace!     :::grin::::

Living large

i love living in the city and for me to say that - me, who grew up on the side of a mountain, stomping in creeks, swimming in the river, walking in the woods - for me to say such a thing is a BIG deal

But here i sit - my house is clean and smells great - classical music is on my stereo, i can hear the many birds outside, i can hear some traffic going by, and i can hear the Mexican ladies who live not far away as they talk in their kitchen and hear the slaps of their hands against the tortillas as they make them.  Much laughter.  i see the man in the next house fixing his screen for his front window - the staple gun making a punching sound - these are all comforting sounds to me now.  Granted i live in a section that is almost always a bit more quiet, but all in all -  i love living in the city.

Think i'll go read on the front porch for a while...

No sleep again? This has got to stop! Someone please help me!!!!
Friday night i'm going to resort to an adult beverage. i'm so sleepy right now but know better than to even close my eyes or there will be no sleep again tonight.
i mean, it's getting so bad that i'm organizing the kitchen so i can bake at 4am

Here i am again

Oh the joy to be awake at 4am.  Until now, i slept deep and peacefully but for the past hour, i've been awake.  i even was medicated due to back spasms on Tuesday.

Why can't i sleep???? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Maybe i should just get up and make chocolate chip cookies.  Want some?

 

 

 

Can't sleep

It's 4.13am.  i'm wide awake.  i've been awake for over an hour.  There's too much on my mind and i need to relax and sleep but it's not happening.

i'm not hungry, i'm not cold, i'm not angry, i'm not sad, i'm not happy, i'm just....not sleeping.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR