Perfect age

Since i was a young teen, i always thought that 'older' men were the most handsome and the ones i tried to be around the most. For example, when i was about 14, i LOVED spending time with my 17 and 18 yr old girlfriends so that i could be around their boyfriends! HA! i wasn't the flirty kind of silly girl - i just liked being around them. i liked to watch how they moved, how they acted and they were usually so much smarter than i was that i was in awe.

When i hit about 17 yrs old, i realized that men don't actually become 'sexy' until they are about 45 yrs old. That age for me has held true to this day. Have you ever noticed it? By 45 yrs old, men are more at home in their own bodies, they usually love what they are doing in life, they have smile lines around their eyes and maybe have a bit of grey in their hair. They are weathered a bit...been around the block and have alot of the awkward corners that boys have are now knocked off. They are still goofy and still little-boy like sometimes, but just are more mature and oh.so.handsome.

Boys that were cute when they were younger now, at 45, become so amazingly handsome that you just want to clock them over the head and drag them into your fireplace.

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Disclaimer: This does not apply to any male in military dress blues. Then, no matter the age, they are just F.I.N.E!

Just saying...

i know exactly when...

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Meet me in St. Louis

Tonight my sister in law, nieces (the sweetest in the world), mother, father and two brothers and i (and that's only about 1/3 of our family) will be having a movie night. We're staying up 'late' (that makes the 5 yr old giggle) to watch "Meet Me In St. Louis" Sprawling out in the family room, snuggling and just spending time together - sounds like the perfect way to celebrate an early Memorial Day.

And we'll be doing so in total freedom.

Happy Memorial Day and for those who served, Thank you.

How can this be?

It's 2am and the rest of the house is quiet and sleeping...and my sister and i have been playing online arcade like games. It's been a blast -just spending time with her and realizing once again, just how poorly i play arcade games. But even in defeat - and espeically in victory - there was fun to be had just being together.

i'm terribly proud of my sisters...but this one has just finished high school and will be graduating soon and going to college. She's had to face alot of obstacles in her young life -and yet i feel that she will succeed and do so spendily. We are close - and i know i'll cry when she moves away, but my heart swells with pride and love to see her making some good choices and trying to acheive her dreams.

So now that our eyes are almost swollen shut and our hands hurt from playing ..i'm gonna hit the hay.

Good night sweet sister. i love you more than you'll ever know and am so thankful that long ago, God saw fit to make you part of the family. i cannot imagine life without you.

Guess what?

i just decided that sometime in the next 10 years, i want to be published.

So...i guess i'd better learn how to write, eh?

A-CHOOOOOOOO

i gotta tell you - i'm SO over the sniffling, sneezing, sneezing, not sleeping because i can't breathe part of Spring. Though i LOVE Spring and am so glad it's finally warm and that i can be outside planting and working in the lawn and garden, this breathing through one nostril is getting kinda old.

Don't get me wrong, i'm very glad to be breathing at all -it's awesome, but i'll be glad when the pollen count in the air goes from so high that everything has a green sheen to more tolerable.

A co-worker told me to get one of those nose pot cleaner outer thing, but the very idea of pouring water into my nose from a tea-pot looking devise is not only gross, but also kinda disturbing.

And now?

Coffee.

Whew i made it to Monday

What a weekend. Friday was graduation and it was a hectic day (as well as the few days proceeding it). However, the President of the College was very happy with the results so that makes me happy (and exhausted)

Saturday saw me finishing a 700 page book and lying like a slug all around the house. Awesome time.

Sunday was church and family time.

Monday is i'm exhausted from it all time and going to bed at 8pm.

i think this officially makes me an old person.

Ya know....

i was having a really good day - enjoying the sun (YAY!), plugging along at work, getting things done, enjoying life. i was in a really good mood. Ate well..good wholesome food, drank some freezing cold water (which is the way i enjoy it most) even got to chomp on some ice!

And then....

And then i read this article: http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5gQE_N0r1XomQlXbpcUFNoe9e6fWgD984NMN80

and i'm SO STEAMING MAD i dont know what to do with myself.

In fact, i'm so mad, i can barely get full sentences out and probably haven't.

i'm furious.

And if you have any sense, you will be too...not just 'ohh poor them..' or some stupid mamby-pamby line...furious.

And i'll tell you another thing - i'd better not, for one second, take my life, my freedom for granted. Too many other women pay such a higher price - because they are female - and and...see? can't even finish the sentence...that's how mad...how furious and how broken hearted i am!

Can't believe it's Monday

This not-working-two-jobs-thing might become habit forming. i had one of the best weekends i've had in a long time (cruise not counting). Just to be able to clean my house, work in my lawn/garden (complete with sneezing and sneezing and sneezing...oh the joy of pollen) and spend some good time with family and friends..attend a concert and celebrate Mother's day with my Ma was very, very nice.

And even though it's already Monday and i'm back to my grumpy-don't-get-in-my-way self, still the pleasantness of the weekend might even carry me through the day.

That and about four cups of coffee.

It's the most wonderful time of the year

SNEEZE!

The pollen is wonderfully high and mighty today. Though i don't usually have a problem with it, today is the exception and i feel like a constant sneezer. Pulling weeds- sneeze. Cleaning my house-sneeze. Over at my folks' for supper-sneeze.

Isn't it fun?

i love this time of the year!

How do i love thee? Let me count the ways

i'm not really into the whole self-love thing..though i do want to take care of myself, but i am starting to take small steps to gaining back my life.

1. Took a leave of absence from the 2nd job. i don't want to quit it all together - i mean in this economy having any sort of job is a wonderful thing, but i need the break. So the LOA is at least until the end of May - maybe longer. Would you believe me if said i felt better already? Sleeping through the night, waking early...this could be a wonderful rest of the month.

2. Am going to take a HUGE look at my general health and weight. One thing that was alarming was some weight gain in the past few months. What the heck is that all about? So as soon as my knee heals completely will be hitting the gym hard, until then will be doing better with eating and taking care of what is put into my body. i'm rather excited about this.

And i'm still way open to marrying for money - i CAN be the trophy wife you've always wanted.

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Don't want to live like this anymore

Currently, i work two jobs. One full-time job that is about 45 min commute each way and one, a part-time job that is about 5 min commute each way.

And ya know what? i'm tired of working so much. i have no time to myself, no time to just do things and enjoy life. It's crazy.

The thing is, the money from the part-time job really helps with fuel in the winter and if i were disciplined enough, i could save all summer and it would be easy street for fuel.

However, the flip side is that my life is passing before me and i'm not running it...it's running me. i don't want to live like this. i want to embrace life, enjoying as many moments as possible. i want to take time to just sit and enjoy nature, to invest in me a bit more, to be with family and friends more, to try something new and unusual.

So i guess i have a few options

One option is to marry a rich Man (i like this option)
Another is to just be really frugal and still save for the winter months
A third is to run away from home
A fourth option is.........(feel free to give suggestions).

The Bahamas

Well..turning 30(again) was easier than i thought (KURT! I AM NOT 50!). i mean when you're surrounded by white beaches, blue sky, clear wonderful water and cabana boys...how tough can it be?

Not tough at all.

So here's to being 20!

Feels like my life has just begun.