Ya know....

i was having a really good day - enjoying the sun (YAY!), plugging along at work, getting things done, enjoying life. i was in a really good mood. Ate well..good wholesome food, drank some freezing cold water (which is the way i enjoy it most) even got to chomp on some ice!

And then....

And then i read this article: http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5gQE_N0r1XomQlXbpcUFNoe9e6fWgD984NMN80

and i'm SO STEAMING MAD i dont know what to do with myself.

In fact, i'm so mad, i can barely get full sentences out and probably haven't.

i'm furious.

And if you have any sense, you will be too...not just 'ohh poor them..' or some stupid mamby-pamby line...furious.

And i'll tell you another thing - i'd better not, for one second, take my life, my freedom for granted. Too many other women pay such a higher price - because they are female - and and...see? can't even finish the sentence...that's how mad...how furious and how broken hearted i am!

Can't believe it's Monday

This not-working-two-jobs-thing might become habit forming. i had one of the best weekends i've had in a long time (cruise not counting). Just to be able to clean my house, work in my lawn/garden (complete with sneezing and sneezing and sneezing...oh the joy of pollen) and spend some good time with family and friends..attend a concert and celebrate Mother's day with my Ma was very, very nice.

And even though it's already Monday and i'm back to my grumpy-don't-get-in-my-way self, still the pleasantness of the weekend might even carry me through the day.

That and about four cups of coffee.

It's the most wonderful time of the year

SNEEZE!

The pollen is wonderfully high and mighty today. Though i don't usually have a problem with it, today is the exception and i feel like a constant sneezer. Pulling weeds- sneeze. Cleaning my house-sneeze. Over at my folks' for supper-sneeze.

Isn't it fun?

i love this time of the year!

How do i love thee? Let me count the ways

i'm not really into the whole self-love thing..though i do want to take care of myself, but i am starting to take small steps to gaining back my life.

1. Took a leave of absence from the 2nd job. i don't want to quit it all together - i mean in this economy having any sort of job is a wonderful thing, but i need the break. So the LOA is at least until the end of May - maybe longer. Would you believe me if said i felt better already? Sleeping through the night, waking early...this could be a wonderful rest of the month.

2. Am going to take a HUGE look at my general health and weight. One thing that was alarming was some weight gain in the past few months. What the heck is that all about? So as soon as my knee heals completely will be hitting the gym hard, until then will be doing better with eating and taking care of what is put into my body. i'm rather excited about this.

And i'm still way open to marrying for money - i CAN be the trophy wife you've always wanted.

:wink:

Don't want to live like this anymore

Currently, i work two jobs. One full-time job that is about 45 min commute each way and one, a part-time job that is about 5 min commute each way.

And ya know what? i'm tired of working so much. i have no time to myself, no time to just do things and enjoy life. It's crazy.

The thing is, the money from the part-time job really helps with fuel in the winter and if i were disciplined enough, i could save all summer and it would be easy street for fuel.

However, the flip side is that my life is passing before me and i'm not running it...it's running me. i don't want to live like this. i want to embrace life, enjoying as many moments as possible. i want to take time to just sit and enjoy nature, to invest in me a bit more, to be with family and friends more, to try something new and unusual.

So i guess i have a few options

One option is to marry a rich Man (i like this option)
Another is to just be really frugal and still save for the winter months
A third is to run away from home
A fourth option is.........(feel free to give suggestions).

The Bahamas

Well..turning 30(again) was easier than i thought (KURT! I AM NOT 50!). i mean when you're surrounded by white beaches, blue sky, clear wonderful water and cabana boys...how tough can it be?

Not tough at all.

So here's to being 20!

Feels like my life has just begun.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Tomorrow i'll be flying to a warm location.

Friday i'll board a ship that will take me to an even warmer location.

Friday is also my birthday. A BIG one. i was rather depressed about it - i just can't believe i'm that old.

However, the cruise to the warm islands will probably help with that depression.

Be back later